i have been journaling a bit in my real journal and here is a recent thought:

everybody wants something to be done, but who is actually standing up in response to the things that bother them? i relate to the helpless sentiment that it's impossible to accomplish a thing alone, but it seems there is an abundance of willing hands waiting for some type of organization. whether it be in your own relationships, your family, your neighborhood, your city, your country, it starts with the man in the mirror does it not? and aside from folks who lack the mental connection between their own attitudes and sentiments of obligation (or lack of) to recognize not just extra ways they could contribute energy or thought, but responsibility to, most people i speak with who are acutely aware of what they can be, should be, are doing, still dissociate to an extent from the reality they experience, and to me it's both not their fault and at the same time urgently their imperative to address. many of the challenges we face interpersonally and at large within our communities are commonly known and understood how to address theoretically, but everything about our way of life is meant to say "shh shh don't worry about that now." if you're not meticulously intentional it is too easy to withhold feelings and giving up entirely. but this dissonance is the same dissonance that they would condemn about issues like racism or homophobia, but somehow the standard isn't applied across the board.

lord knows im not the person to be speaking about this, nor does my website reach anyone who needs this sort of influence. but just as to be whole and complete as a person you need to acknowledge and process. your emotions and take an action, the same process applies to realizing you are a part of your community whether you stay inside all day or not. people live like they're the only people who live in their city but talk a different way online or to friends. it doesn't make sense. well, it does, but if someone is really about the things i see people claiming to be about then it should show elsewhere in their life right? we are a single step away from the potential of real change, but it's the hardest step. i think of it as literally like getting off of drugs. but it has to be done doesn't it?

some things about me: i like to skateboard, draw, make music, bake, ride city bikes, go outside. i'm from st. louis, and i live in kansas city. i am 20 years old at the time of writing. i sell bread at @bread.plug on instagram. if you're local dm me for some bagels.

i am anticipating my sophomore year at kcai as an incoming member of the fiber department. my interests explore a wide spectrum of disciplines, but academically i am drawn to fiber for several qualities the form offers. this is not an artistic statement, but as this section functions like an about page, here is why i am drawn to it.

working with canvas, thread, etc, at a micro scale is for me very meditative--the form allows me to freehand complicated networks of lines, very loosely yet in a precise way. to me it is similar to drawing with lines, but if each line was straight, and 10x more time is spent making each mark. it allows me to think more about placement and interaction.

i have yet to explore much in the illustrative/image realm of fibers beyond black and white linework, and i am curious about technologically aided image creation as well as large scale image creation (thinking about a technique close to painting involving color blocking, creating shapes to inform contour vs. the other way around.)

i am a beginner, although i have sewn, woven, and made images before. i humbly step into a new journey, which i will try to carry out and document professionally.

hello, i am starting this website today.